What is going on? (Seriously, do you know?)

 
​Imagine this if you can.  You are seated around a table with a most glorious spread in front of you. It's so elegant and lovely you don't really want to touch anything.  At the table, there are seated other versions of your former self. You as a child, you as a teenager, you as a 20 year old, you before Covid 19 ...you get the picture.  Then there is you now and next to you a seat that is empty for who you are becoming.  She's not here yet.  She won't be showing up for awhile.  She is in transit. 
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When I am most honest (which I hope is always) I have to admit that the past few years have really thrown me off. Not in one way but in many ways. I no longer really know exactly who I am or what I like or even what I don't like. What I do know is that the world has changed and also it has not changed. The great hope I had the COVID 19 would somehow make us all better people is starting to feel like a ruse.  I was naive in my hopes for the world but that is not unusual. 

At this table with the many versions of you, what would you talk about? What would you say?  How would you address each other? With fondness?  I hope so.  It would be ideal if you could greet your former selves with love and appreciation.  We haven't had it easy, have we?  We could argue that many other people have had it a lot worse. But, that is not the point.  The point of this is - how are you doing?  Really? Not that best case scenario you put on for the world, but the real you. The one making room for the new self to arrive. 

I wonder if we can really make room for her?  Can we see that she won't come until we make a space for her to come in.  Is it possible for us to see that we need to invite who we are becoming to the banquet of our life.  Let's give this experiment a try.  Who will she be? How will she look and feel about the world?  What does she care about most?

As we live our lives, how would it be to engage our imagination instead of our worry?  How can we give our very best to ourselves now in this moment?   Appreciating our selves at every stage may be a good starting point. Realising that the rest of our story is still yet unwritten may be another important point.  Whatever you are seeking is seeking you. This is what the ancient poets taught us.  Can we believe it?  Now may be the time to truly embrace this. 
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